Also, I thought it was important for everyone to know the reason for the failure last time- So I was going strong, everything was wonderful, and I was actually very proud telling people I was a vegetarian. I was officially a vegetarian, since i passed the 30 day mark. Then one day, I can remember it like it was yesterday- I went out drinking with a friend (who shall remain nameless), and I was not going to be driving home so I had plenty to drink... plenty meaning, more than enough and then some. At 3:30am me and him were in the Wendys Drive Through, I broke my streak with a Double Bacon Cheeseburger, Large Fries, Large Diet Coke, Five Piece Nuggets, and BBQ Sauce....
When I woke up in the morning, it was a very weird feeling. It was all over, all my efforts down the drain...I just sat there for hours thinking of ways of defining what I was feeling.... and the only analogy I could come up with....its a little explicit, but certainly fits...
I felt like a girl that had a LOT to drink the night before, and ended up doing something that I did not want to do, and went against my beliefs.....Did not know where to go from there.... so I just indulged in all kinds of meat products from then till Dec 31st, 2010-
just because you have a slutty night at Wendy's, doesn't mean you have to throw in all your views/morals/beliefs. the power of your beliefs should carry you through these dips. doesn't mean you still can't be what you started out wanting to be. i think the reason you failed last time is that you didn't figure out for yourself the real root cause of your need to be vegetarian...it can't just be disgust. that doesn't hold much weight when you've been boozing all night and the only thing that could round it out is a meatfest. look deep-er. (sorry, love my puns)
ReplyDeleteOk...my apologies if I have not been clear enough, I have figured out the real root cause a while back prior to my last attempt- The real root cause is that I do not believe in killing another thing to eat, I just dont agree with it. And the disgust theory was only for my vegan side.... I think its disgusting to drink something that comes out of another animal. Cant do it....
ReplyDeleteMY apologies...I see you have your reasons. But what I said about not letting one slip bring you down for the rest of the year still holds true. Also, does the not-killing-to-eat stance extend to other things....death penalty, wearing leather, wartime fighting...omg, sorry, this is what happens when I drink 2 glasses of wine and have too many convos late night. pls forgive. but still wanna know. btw, you're slacking on updates.
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